[cylon]

Ok. I want my own apartment. I don't want to live with my Dad anymore. I love him but I feel like a child in his place, even if I pay rent etc. He thinks I haven't taken care of my part and he's afraid we'll get evicted.

I want to be on my own, in my own clean apartment.

I don't see the how. I don't have the income. Studios in my area are more expensive than what I can pay. I am looking for new work, but no raise or new job as of yet. I'm really feeling this needs to be done ASAP. Yes I am doing my best to stay present.

I just don't see how I can do this without getting a new job that pays more, and right now, the right job is not presenting itself to me. I am trapped in the "how".

Any tips. I'm so close to this that it's hard to think clearly. Desire is strong. Belief I deserve it is strong. Belief it can happen without a new job and more money, not as strong.