[Rafael Perez]

You want to be a Pastor, then become a Pastor. You could research as much as you want, but if you want to be something- become that thing now. Find a church that you feel comfortable with, talk to the pastoral staff about what steps they think you should take as far as becoming a pastor. You may first become a youth pastor or an associate pastor, I know most associate and senior pastors continue theology and schooling even after taking a position at the church.

But if you want to be something and you "know" that is what you want then go for it. Don't worry about having the "Gift" you will decide if it is something you really want when you decide that is what you want to do with your life.

At this point, all I can tell you is to just jump right into it, visit churches, read the bible, read books on theology, visit some Christian colleges, do what ever it is that you feel is inline with who you believe you are and let go of the fear associated with the not knowingness... just jump in and enjoy every moment of living your life the way you want to live it.