The stress part I guess.
It is like my brain is wasting energy and I feel like I can't do anything outside my comfort zone, including taking steps in the direction of personal development. So I feel tired most of the time and have low motivation.
My feeling is like I would already know a lot of things I could do or should do to improve myself, but I don't feel like doing them, like if I was waiting for something to happen or wake me up.
For example I know I should do some sports and eat less junk food, but taking the steps is already out of my comfort zone.
So I guess what I need is maybe micro micro baby steps. At least I registered to this forum now