My greatest fear is of non-existence; of oblivion. I cannot shake it.
To sit and contemplate oblivion--the possibility of my consciousness no longer existing--that is truly crushing. This idea first occurred to me when I was quite young. And now, many years later, after all of my spiritual pursuits, I still have the same fear. Still dying every day.
I want to believe--in order to alleviate my fear--but so far, nothing has produced that leap of faith.
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