And, belle, as you are exploring* the good suggestions of the other posters above, may I suggest that you continue to be patient and loving with that little girl part of you as you explore? It sounds a bit like she hasn't been heard for a long while and she has a lot to say. My own experience is to sit with the maelstrom of pain/desires, acknowledge them and then have a little "pep" talk with that part of me (along the lines of: "Thank you for pointing all this out and I understand where you're coming from. I'm going to take care of you better than you have been in the past and this [yoga, Angela's insights, Kabbalah, Sedona, etc.] is the way I think will help us both. We'll work together on this...etc.").
The fun part of this, for me, is that it helped me realized a lot of what Angela's saying above.
*PS: I deliberately used the term "exploring" above because, as I've read your posts on this board, that's how you come across to me--as an adventuresome explorer, learning, moving ahead, rising to challenges. While you may not be aware of it, I get a great sense of courage from your posts. Excuse me, if that's an inappropriate observation, but I thought you might like to hear it.
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