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Originally Posted by Maguru  Why are you so angry? |
Well, there are external things to blame anger on, but I think it is just a habit. The biggest thing that frustrates me is that I am a stay-at-home-mom and so it seems like I have to spend all my time watching kids and it leaves very little time to work on projects that I enjoy, specifically computer programming and video editing and going to "adult" places (a movie or the shooting range or keraeoke(?) or dancing) and having sex. It has been a little harder this month because the nanny that usually comes in 10 hours a week is on vacation and husband has been putting in a lot of hours at work and can't help like he usually does.
But when I look back, I think I have had a problem with my anger since as a child and certainly since a teenager. I would yell at my parents and rage and cry and just generally make myself miserable if anything didn't go my way. I would try to use my anger to manipulate my parents to get my way, and later that habit transferred to other people close to me. So the problem is on the inside, not on the outside.
Honestly, I think Gratitude is a big piece of overcoming this, thank you everyone for your replies and kind support.