Hello!
I understand your pain, anger is so exausting also, I lost my sister when I was 15 and my mom when I was 16, then my father died apx 17 yrs ago at the good age of 65..
My anger was not necessarily directed at any one of them specifically, but just pissed off for many years at the loss of my blood family, I mean everyone else had a family why not me????
this turned into deep woe is me type of thing,and it is soooooo unproductive, but i also believe it brought me to where I am today, today I see the full picture , I am able to understand loss as a part of life , that really is what it is all about..
For me the self pitty was worse to burden around, then the actual loss of my family members, so with good councelling I have been able to see my life as a puzzle being put together , one piece at a time.......
maybe a good grief councellor might be able to help you through the anger, , just know that I do understand the pain that comes with the loss of loved ones!! and I am sending you good vibrations with lots of hugs and best wishes for you along your journey of healling !!!
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