You were being trained by your Benefactor (aka Higher Self). This being's total commitment and reason for existance is to make sure that you fulfill your original instructions. They're your coach and mentor; your protector and Chief Guide.
You have the ability to accept or decline anything. But understand, that your Guides will never ask you to do something you can't and they will never abandon you. They may press you and test you and challenge you, but you will always be the stronger for it. They always have your best interest first and formost in their design.
It's possible your original purpose was to do exactly what you were doing: ie. helping other entities raise their vibration to stem the flow of Darkness. That's a heavy responsibility to be sure, but again, trust in your Guides; they'll never harm you or allow you to be harmed.
I guarantee you that if you let yourself reach out to your Benefactor, she'll be waiting. |