Hey Chado,
What are
you willing to do to help yourself?
Exercise is a good anxiety reliever if you do the right kind. Taking good care of your physical health helps. Also you have to find strategies that will work for you. Music is a great mood enhancer. Reading inspiring literature also helps. Keep trying.
If you can't afford medication or find support elsewhere, (the great people on these forums are and have been
very supportive) you'll have learn to be your own best friend. Kick it up a notch Chado!