A response to the how to be a man/woman blog posts
The question of sexuality has fascinated me for a long time. My parents are kinda feminist and tried to put across the idea that men and women are essentially distinguished only by their genitals -- a sad view IMO. As a kid (a very rebellious one) I remember asserting that I could play with barbies if I WANTED TO -- but I didn't. Despite..or perhaps because of my strong urge to prove myself as a person who didn't care what people thought of him, I grew up to be very masculine.
That's the thing. You've got these chemicals in your body, your brain has been built specifically according to your gender -- you don't need to WORK to be your own sex: if you're a free mind then you'll embrace your own energy.
Gender, though, has become a horribly taboo topic nowadays. I think the orthodox view is that women and men are equal in everything -- hmph! So the past liberalism has become today's conservatism. Nowadays to be a self-respecting rebel I have to be against feminism, hah.
Attention all modern day liberal conservatives: men and women are
not the same.
Some of you may be like shrugging your shoulders at this like it's obvious, some might be getting out your shotguns. I remember talking to a friend of mine about this and she was like, "so?"... it didn't seem to be any grand shock that men and women were different to her. But from the brainwashing I got from TV etc, and the lack of any reliable role model in my father, I was somewhat on the other side, and hence, I had an inner conflict to resolve.
The golden rule doesn't work in this situation. Sexually, we want different things. Men: do you want to be penetrated by another man's sexual organ? If the answer is no, then you are different to a woman. There is a symbolism here that's impossible to take away: a woman is being penetrated, dominated. I hear some battle-feminists saying sometihng like "all penetrative sex is rape". If you believed in the golden rule, if you were so seperate from reality that you imagined a woman to be the same as you, then this could make sense.
The fact is, sex is not Politically Correct.
It just isn't.
If you're PC then you make children by artificial insemination.
The System, that collection of ideas that keeps us in the rat-race, was previously owned by the catholic church, which made sex bad. Now the church is down but sexual polarity is bad. I realise that my personal brand of conspiracy theory is radical but the way I view it, the System wants to redirect sexual energy into keeping itself going.
And sexual energy is POWERFUL.
If you think about it from the evolutionary perspective, then it only makes sense; passing on your genes is more important even than surviving.
And nature is known for multi-tasking. That same drive to make children drives you to the individual behaviours of your sex with more strength than even the drive to survive.
There's no way I can explain it even to myself in simple words... and I'm not even sure I've finished understanding it, fully; but this energy must be understood by its FEEL.
If you revel in the thrill of overcoming resistence in battle then this is masculine energy.
If you love to feel beautiful then this is feminine energy.
If you would defy an order just for the principle of the tihng -- that you will not be ordered about -- then this is masculine energy.
If you would give your power to another then this is feminine energy.
Masculinity is more like DOING, femininity is more like BEING.
Masculinity is concerned with the flow of freedom. Feminity is concerned with the flow of love.
You couldn't live without either. Whether you "are" masculine or feminine is to do with your priority in this. To say that you are masculine means that your first level is masculine, but then your second level is feminine, etc.
I'd say that Steve's light/dark model has sometihng to do with sexuality. But saying that "darkworkers" are polarised by fear is like saying that "lightworkers" are polarised by shame. Or perhaps it's just incomplete.
The masculine poles are
FEAR on the negative side -------------- FREEDOM on the positive side
The feminine poles are
SHAME on the negative side ------------ LOVE on the positive.
Needless to say that being positively aligned is better in all respects.
The masculine and feminine, like positive and negative particles, seek to balance their energies: and it is the fact that they cannot perfectly balance them that keeps them in the endless dance of life. (When feminine and masculine balance themselves perfectly there is APOTHEOSIS and a new imbalance is created: for example, children. Imagining this with the positive negative particles, it could be matter meeting antimatter and creating energy through their own destruction).
This freedom is the opposite of fear. Fear is the focus on the loss of power/life/presence in the world (words fail to express). Freedom, then, is the focus on the gain of this life. From an evolutionary perspective, it's the increase of the dominence of your own genes. (Femininity, then, is increasing the longetivity of those genes: nurturing).
Femininity seeks to become god through transcendence.
Masculinity seeks to become god through ascendence.
Both are good and beautiful, and no single one could exist without the other.
(going through these ideas makes for total rational-mind overload. It's a truth that shifts and changes by perspective. Wayyy trippy).