Hi Chado,
First and foremost, make sure that you don't have a medical condition or nutritional deficiency. It's surprising how your attitude can improve with the right vitamins and exercise. If your physical health is lacking, certainly your emotional health will be.
Secondly, you may be in a seemingly deep, impossible rut out of which the only way out is determination, focus and action. If that is the case, you must take the first step and it will require courage and willpower. I understand you don't think counseling is helpful so you'll have to take responsibility and do it on your own.
Life can be challenging and difficult so you can either give up or you can decide to take the bull by the horns and deal with it. Here are a couple of articles I wrote that may give you some ideas on how to get started:
Live a Life of Courage 10 Tips For Maintaining Mental and Emotional Health
I wish you well, Chado!