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Originally Posted by metamorph

I know what you mean.

Well, some colleagues see me as a "narcistic" loner, because I do not socialise much with them for the exact same reasons you mentioned (gossiping, negativity, reactivity etc). They don't understand why I rather spend time alone than with them in social groups. I just don't like "social opportunism" (my definition: socialising only to stop you feel lonely even if the other people are not on your wave-lenght). They can see and feel that I am genuinely very happy and fulfilled alone, probably much more happy than they will ever feel in the group. But, because this is not part of their reality, they think I must be a so called "narcistic" loner, who only cares for himself. Not that I care about their opinion, though! They would always prefer socialising to being for alone yourself.
Although I truly am happy alone, I find it sad in a way, because I like people in general. I just wished there were more people on my wave-lenght.

Exactly the same here.

And I feel better without a woman too. Call me narcissistic loner too...