Garentee,
I am sorry to hear you've lost your mother at an early age. You have made the right decision by coming here. The first step is the most important.
Although I've have not experienced this level of loss of a loved one, I understand the feeling of anger quite well. The best advice I can give you is for you to pray about it and search deep inside what her death means to you. Don't believe the voices in your head telling you how you should feel. Those voices are not necessarily you. What you need to do at this point is come to accept that nothing could be done about her leaving you. Come to accept that there are many things in life that are out of our control. So, since it was out of her control, then there should not be any feelings of anger. Replace the feelings of anger with feelings of hope that oneday you will be with her again (in spirit). Keep in mind this level of thinking will require quite a bit of faith on your part.
Essentially, all I am saying is for you to put your faith in God and he will bless you with the understanding you need to unleash the anger and gain the peace he is waiting to give you. Believe in your heart that the anger that you are focusing on is a trap Satan is setting for you so that you can lose direction and ultimately ruin your life.  |