Hello Metamorph
Just want to say I've been going through similar things. And I've had a desire to tell my parents what hurt, what didn't help as a child (as I'm begining to become v aware of them, having been unaware for a long time as i buried everything). Basically blame them and I'm not sure it's good.
I've told my mum about some things that were really hard for me as a kid and it doesn't ever give me any peace, she often still doesn't get it or if she does she says its was 20yrs ago, get over it already (which just makes me feel worse) or just criticises me for feeling that way, being oversensitve etc. I guess I'm annoyed with myself for not expressing my feelings and being unauthentic from an early age.
I'm not sure I could write them a thank you letter, but I've realised I have to take responsibility and resolve the issues myself. See where I made choices, see how I could have made others or forgive myself for the choices I made. It's so tempting to blame them, and maybe I'll give into it but unfortunately think I have to try not to. They will never get it anyway. I suppose the reason I'd want them to get it is so that we could work on our relationship and see why our relationship is as it is and how it could change.
All the best
Vicky
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