[hazerfazer]

Hi everyone,

I'm 16, and I've been worrying about one thing or another for most of my life. I was a very happy kid when I was younger, but was still prone to worry, self-doubt, and self-pity. I have been depressed for about a year now, and I find worrying is a consistent component of my life. I used to worry about getting certain sicknesses, then it went to mental fears - fear that I would hurt someone, etc. Now, I worry about never being able to achieve what I want to. Plus, life has just generally confused me lately.

I'm tired of it. I'm tired of feeling that I could either cry or break something at any moment. I'm tired of having little hope, and worrying and pitying myself. Nowadays I worry that I will never be able to work hard at working out (something I really care about..I have been working hard, but every time I miss a workout or stop short of pushing my limits, my self-doubt increases ten fold) and I still have some fears of hurting someone close to me. I feel like my desire burns out when I am feeling challenged. Being depressed leaves me little energy to feel like I am capable of achieving the things I want to. But I'm going to change that, I don't know how exactly, but with your help I am going to do it. I have to. I want to feel the excitement and love for life I once had. I'm tired of feeling like a failure. Could someone help point me in the right direction?