First: Fullcrum is right: women does absolutely not care about penis size. You been focusing on the wrong things, like you said yourself, feeding your deamons. turn it around: study the things that will once and for all end those illusions: Kama sutra, tantric love making, seduction methods: thereīs tons of information on the net and in book stores.
And the msot important thing: it sounds like you been through hell in your life. And still have so much trauma to work through. You canīt deal with this on your own. You need therapy. Support, advice, therapy will get you that. I myself got a lot of help with cognitive therapy to heal from extensive trauma and abuse in my childhood. Check it out, or do some research on the possibilities for different threapy forms in your area. Donīt do this on your own, get help.
good luck, man! |