[garentee]

Thanks for your generous replies. I should give a little more info here. My dad was a good man but he was so emotionally bound up for his entire life. SO when this event happened his advice to us as kids was Try not to think about it. Well I did a really good job at taking his advice... I repressed everything. I have been doing a lot of soul searching for the past few years and have changed an awful lot. I feel like this a core issue. I am just not sure how to proceed. I really like all the suggestions so far, I am not sure though why I mean really WHY I am mad at her... But I am going to find out. Thanks again. G