Thanks Erin, reading your replies always makes me feel comforted and happy.
During meditation sessions prior to reading your post, I was basically pushing myself to listen, by quieting my mind down and waiting, and nothing would come through. If at all I hear something, I know it is just me talking. When Jonathan talks to me, I
know it is him. I can sort of feel it is not me talking, but him. Yesterday evening I again had a spontaneous and rather short contact with him.
When I sat down for meditation last night, I tried something different. I went through some elaborate rituals like setting up protection and then opening up each of my chakras, and then visualizing myself open up for contact. This time I had a female energy talking to me. She was so very gentle, sweet and yet confident. Before she came, I had a scent of Jasmine floating up my nostrills. Then I heard her. She had a very musical sort of voice. I never saw her, but I felt what her energy was like, and knew it was feminine.
She gave the name "Shakti" to me. She gave me a message about embracing my womanhood and being proud of who I am, and something about nurturing and being gentle. Her voice and presence, although feminine, were entirely different from those of my own inner voice. She was very nice, and I really liked her. She too was silent when I asked her one question, but after a while answered it without me asking.
Then I told her that I would like some sort of symbol or proof that I am not just imagining things, and that what was happening was for real. I said that since she came with a scent of Jasmines, I would like to see Jasmine flowers or their pictures after I finish meditation. She agreed to that.
After she left, I closed the connection, closed my chakras, thanked the spirits and ended my meditation. I felt very peaceful.
When I had arranged the Jasmine symbol with her, I expected it to come up when I browse the Internet, as that was what I intended to do afterwards. But the symbol came up almost immediately but in a very different way. I casually looked at the contents of a bowl (that I had got a couple of days back from a local prayer meeting) and found to my surprise that it had actual Jasmine flowers! Most of them were dried but there were a couple of fresh flowers too. I then thought maybe the Jasmine scent came from them, but I had sat for meditation farther away from this bowl on the other side of the room, and besides when I smelled these flowers I could detect only a very, very faint scent if any. The scent I obtained during meditation was much stronger. And for the couple of days this bowl was in the room, not once had I got a scent from them.
I guess it is the proof I had asked for, that I am not imagining stuff. On the one hand I am really happy and rather curious, but on the other I still don't know! I do want to believe this, but it is more difficult than one may think. I do not have a history of such experiences, except, as I said, in my teen years when I used to have conversations with "God" inside my head occassionally (I was brought up as a Hindu and to me God meant Krishna). But after that I had gone really worldly - happily at that too - and have only recently turned to my spiritual side.
Erin and other psychic people here - can you do me an immense favor - it will mean a whole lot to me if you could - Could you please use your psychic powers (and maybe ask your guides or something) and confirm that I am actually contacting the "other side"? I know it is a lot to ask, and I will be grateful to you always for this. A simple yes or no would be sufficient if you are really busy - I just need to hear it from someone valid so that I can be more open-minded about this. Thank you ever so much - I really really look forward to it.
Love,
Gayathri.