Alright thats cool, its your choice not to have friends.
I made a similar choice during my teen years. At the time I didn't think like this, looking back though its so true. You see, the few friends I had where pretty much my bullies as well (talk about abusive relationships lol). The problem was, it all came from my own ****ed up self image. I didn't think to highly of myself and so nobody else did.
Then I thought, **** it I'm not taking this **** anymore and basically disconnected from them. Got some new friends who where in a similar boat. Dragged my ass out of it. Finished school, got into a new one. Never created a new social circle, didn't think I was worth it at the time. Didn't think I had anything to give.
Now, time to rock it in a new school next year. I'm going to freakin' tear that town to pieces. Why? Made the decision to do it. Time to be social and be a force of nature.
I'm off to a sick party right now, the main purpose being throwing beer around (a bunch of farmers can have crazy parties, if you ever want to party for realllzzz visit us Dutchies in Twente and I'll hook ya up
).
Before I'd be **** scared to go, I'd tell myself 'ah these ain't my type of parties' but in reality I was shitting myself. Now I'm looking forward to it, mentality change 180 degree's turned around.
If this post doesn't make sense, don't worry about it I'm high on techno. ltrz
