 Hello
I think I may know why this stresses you out and has caused these feelings in you.
I am going to assume that your parents told you your not allowed date until your sixteen and then gave you an explanation that did not satisfy you. To you, their explanation was either too weak, unjustified or seemingly like an excuse to exercise their authority over you. I bet when they told you this, your expression and thoughts were probably along the lines of, "what, are you kidding? Are you seriously not letting me date for reason X?" But, because of your dependence on your mom and dad for everything, its hard to fight and win.
To you, you've been probably attracted to girls for a long time and you simply want to act on it like your fellow peers, but because of these rules levied on you by your parents, you might feel as though something is wrong with you, and that you of all your peers need special restrictions.
I know this feeling because I've also had rules levied on me that didn't make sense, while my peers around me did things with impunity and i always asked my parents if i could, and everytime they'd say no and i asked for an explanation, it would sound like a cheap answer, a cop out if you will. I'd always feel as if I wasn't smart enough or good enough to handle the real truth, which as i've come to find out this day, is my parent's own fears and insecurities.
I have a feeling you are very much in the same boat.
If i am wrong in any of these assumptions please point them out to me, as i am simply going by instinct and intuition here.  |