Hey all,
First of all I want to thank you all for your insightful answers. I have really been thinking about this these two days and your input has been very valuable.
Firstly, I currently live in China because my whole family moved here when my father got a job and we will remain here for at least two more years.
I want to take advantage of this gift, but as we all know studying something at random or something that I don't want is not going work.
I want to take this chance, but I don't know what I want... I have no direction... I have never done anything for myself in my life... I have never taken big decisions... there's my big frustration... I think I need a slap in the face, paradigm shift, or something...
I thought if I study a broad subject I can learn more of what I like, want, myself, etc. But I meet resistance from my parents through this way.
I also though that another way to achieve the same goal would be to work on different jobs... but... I have never done that... and I am afraid I will not find a job.
I have been thinking after reading your answers though that I should probably communicate more with my parents, try to find a compromise.
The Cloud, you said I am afraid of admitting what I want. Perhaps I am not afraid of not finding a job, but I am afraid of all that it'd mean to get a job, of growing up, etc.
Anyway, sorry if this seems more like a random collection of thoughts and not a coherent post, I am just a little bit confused with all this information!
