Quote:
Originally Posted by Jewbear  Well 2 weeks ago my father committed suicide by hanging himself in the barn. I think it was partly my fault. In the days before my father took his life he seamed to be reaching out to me but since I put up a emotional wall to protect myself from his past behavior I did not reach back. Lately it has been killing me because of what my mom read in his diary. My father thought I was gay because i have never really been interested in sports or had a steady girlfriend. The truth is I am but never told him or my mom because in fear of what they may say. I had tried to goto church to deal with my thirst for men but the urge was to strong. I don't even know how to begin to deal with this crisis that I call my life. Any help would be greatly appreciated. |
It's not your fault. Remember that - it's not your fault.