You know I have felt the same way. I went to university and fail pretty much all my classes. I wasn't motivated. I knew all along but I let other people beliefs influence me.
I want to get out of my parent's house but I'm not sure. My sister says I should wait 2 years save my money and go buy a condo, she doesn't know why I didn't do it before (because I am 26 years old). Part me feel I should do that but another part tells me I should follow a dream of mine to go work overseas. I never did because I was scared. I am thinking of doing it but after that I do what? My parents won't be happy. Will they let me come back home afterwards?
I am stuck between two part one follow everyone: have a house, have a steady job and have a boyfriend or take a risk and go live somewhere else.
Maybe I am over thinking because I want to escape my life. I just wasted so many years in school I don't want to do that anymore.
Knowing that I find it hard to find my real purpose. I just want to be right. I know it takes time. I should take it a day at a time but I think to much lol
Maybe like The Cloud said I am afraid to really live the way I desire.  |