[Michelle]

Update:
I wrote my main professor (of singing) that she and I need to redefine our relationship from student-teacher to more of partner-partner concerning my education. I also told her the thought of singing in next week's concert does not give me pleasure and that I will not do any singing in the future which does not bring me pleasure. I also told her that the idea of a bunch of dusty old professors sitting there judging my singing to be worthy or not (and who would do hard to do better themselves) makes me boil.

Today she called me, and made the very good point that my singing is not about the professors or even me - but about the music and art itself. She said she is shocked by what I said of my professors. And we have to have a meeting this Tuesday. She told me my wanting to spread my wings is a good thing, but that it has to come from a more realistic perception. Somehow this makes me very angry.

What do you guys think? My professor is part of me which wants me to be more realistic, etc? Should I listen to that part of me or try to convince it otherwise?

I feel somehow lost...