 hmmm
I also think that it is very good for you that you learned how to forgive, to forgive completely is certainly far better than to stick to your anger, fear or resentment.
However reading your post I felt that you are still deeply attached to your bf. I felt that in a way your forgiveness had opened a new way to experience this attachment making it really hard to leave this relationship in reality.
Yes, that's exactly what I wrote. You still didn't leave. You still live in a world when you and him are a couple.
"I can almost see golden tendrils flowing from me to him."
"Anyways, for anyone holding onto negativity in their relationships (...)"
This is your message to people IN relationship so apparently you didn't leave that one.
I think that another wave of forgiveness, and believe me or not - this forgiveness will be complete - can come AFTER you accept that there is no relationship* between two of you anymore. When he will stop to be a very special person in your life. He will be just special, as everyone is.
*I mean here something more than relationship which exists between any people, between you and me for instance.  |