I used to be be my own worst enemy. I found out my lack of self-esteem was due primarily to negative thoughts, my negative thinking. It was at that point that I immersed my self in self-help and personal growth. Gradually, I dissolved my negative thought patterns. I became a more positive person and developed self-esteem. But after checking out the following video, it really made me see the self-esteem I developed from a totally new angle:
YouTube - Why "The Secret" DOESN'T Work - Eckhart Tolle - part 1/2
If you don't want to check out the video, here's an summary you can read pertaining to the video:
Self Esteem
This really hit home with me. As Tolle gives his spin on self-esteem, it seemed he was talking about my personal journey to become a positive person with high self-esteem. It's funny because I did all the stuff he talked about
: affirmations, visualization, reminder notes, etc. I even experienced the negative aspect of having high self-esteem: as explained by Tolle, if you feel you have high self-esteem, inevitably you will experience situations that will tell you otherwise.
The video made me realize that I was attached too attached to my self-esteem. I guess it's because there was a time in my life I had none; and now I'm just enjoying the fact that I have it. Perhaps I was too identified with it. Since I watched the video, I haven't been doing stuff that would uphold my self-esteem. For now, I just don't know.