[reneex061]

I'm 18 yrs old an I have been been dating my current boyfriend for over a year. I was never insecure until after we started dating for a while, he had nothing to do with my change. Certain things that happened with other people have effected how I am now, so I know why I'm like this. But I wish it wasn't with him because he has never done anything wrong to make me so insecure.

I am always wondering why he didn't call me when he said he would or why he doesn't want to talk about certain things. I always think that he is cheating on me or that he is talking to someone else, or something like that. I seem to always think bad things whenever I shouldn't at all. He has never done anything I thought he was doing. I always question EVERYTHING, like where he's going and who he talks to and what about. I even do this when he is at home. He has never done anything or gone anywhere that he shouldn't have. I always ask him if any girls have talked to him and the answer is always no but I still ask or some reason. I always ask things even if i know the answer. i hate doing this to him and myself because he always gets mad when i assume things that shouldn't be in my head.

I want to be done with all of this and be okay with everything for once. But how do I be secure with everything and lose this insecurity that I've had for a while now? Please help me fix myself.