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Originally Posted by carenkh  Thanks for the suggestion. That would work for the up/down thing, but over time... I just get crankier. Like that would make the day-to-day swing work out, but after several days... I'm just kinda mean! And short-tempered. I don't feel as present. Even though it's a relatively small amount of caffeine, it affects me a lot over time.
I got a lot from reading the part about addictions in A New Earth... being very mindful with whatever you're choosing. I think if I give myself the freedom to *choose* coffee, that will help that inner teen not feel so controlled.
I gave up restricting my kids' food choices about a year ago, and I'm amazed how much *less* junk they eat now. They know they can have what they want when they want, so they don't need to have food to rebel. I guess I need to acknowledge that I do have that same freedom. |
I'd really recommend either drinking it habitually (a couple of cups through the day), drinking it "socially" like Jim was talking about above ONLY (a cup or so once in awhile when out with friends, maybe even nasty decaf), or cutting it out entirely- the on again, off again dance you're doing has to be wreaking havoc on you with constant states of "fix" and "withdrawal"... I'd feel truly sorry for anyone stuck being around me if I did that, and likely wouldn't have a girlfriend anymore
I still think you're getting yourself too worked up over the whole thing, just enjoy it if you want to or drop it if not- making yourself feel so guilty about drinking coffee is probably what's making you so cranky in the first place
Hey, at least it isn't cigarettes, or meth, or heroin, etc...