LizAust,
When I read your post I felt strongly connected to your situation. I know where you are at. I feel the simplicity and power in your purpose. I also feel your struggle.
There is a reason why you have accomplished less when compared to your peers. Sometimes, our spirit holds us back in the more common areas of accomplishment, to facilitate the realizations and call-to-action that you describe.
Reading your post is a little like reading my own story -- between the lines of course. If ever you need encouragement or help in any way, use the contact form on my site to reach me.
Best,
John
Self Help for Sensitive Souls — Zen-Moments