#1 you seriously have depression, see a doctor. There's nothing wrong with having depression, it just means you need more of something that you don't have - serotonin. You might not even have to take medication, there are plenty of ways to help correct this imbalance. It'll help your feeling of helplessness.
#2 clearly your mom's world revolves around her - think of how she'd feel if you 'offed' yourself. Do you want to make the wonderful woman who does all this stuff for you feel like that? It's not much of a reward for her is it? Reward her by being the best you can be, and thank her for doing this for you - my mother couldn't do that for me, and many people's mothers wouldn't - take the opportunity given to you and live for that.
#3 sit down and talk with your mom. tell her you'd like more responsibility,that you feel your days are empty. I'm pretty sure she'll have some ideas on how you could fill them up.
Killing yourself because you've got nothing else to do, well that's as horrible as murdering someone else because you're bored. Not to mention selfish. I'm sure that deep down, that's not the result you're really after is it? As for being on the news, that sort of stuff doesn't really make headlines these days. You need to really consider the cold, hard realities of death. |