What you've said seems to make quite some sense, it does sort of feel like that, like I'm hitting a form of barrier and things seem to go downhill from there onwards (out of whatever reason) What is your experience with these 'panic barriers'? What did you overcome? And HOW do you do it (in terms of mental approach) I personally never feel like I'm panicking, I just kinda of let go of things, but not consciously, it just happens and voila, a week later I find I've done next to nothing without even noticing it!
I'm not sure whether I understood you correctly, but do you mean once you've pulled through one barrier, there's always another, but that you've become stronger by then so that the with each barrier your break through you're gaining strength as well?
But as you say 'Itīs your sub-conscious mind - your programming, habits, conditioned thinking - that wants to stop you from changing' -thats what it very much feels like, like I've never truly made a shift or a fundamental change, like something's always held me back.