Well, I cannot tell you why you do it! I thought you would tell me
I suppose it's something like you feeling that your genuine Self is "not enough" in some way? Or you being insecure and trying to avoid being hurt or losing your face? Or you just wanting to feel admired?
So you do something that you don't like. Is it really a good use of your time to figure out in details why you do it? Can you imagine just letting go of this pattern whenever you notice it and being committed to be your genuine Self instead?
You don't try to impress me and I find you so lovely
A good idea would also be to get Angela's coaching if you can afford a coach. I know she's inventing something new about her coaching now, but the style of coaching she did with me back in winter is an excellent way to address exactly such things. She helped me tremendously.
Much Love to your genuine Self
