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Originally Posted by Plato  I'm so befuzzled by it all. When reading the stuff about darkworkers I felt it really resonated with me... yeah, I'm not afraid to admit it, though my deceptive darkworker sense is telling me not to- I DO want to be powerful. And there is a side to me that doesn't care about anyone else... and I began to feel really good. I mean really seriously fantastic at the idea of crushing my way to power. But asking myself if I was happy to hurt other people the answer was a resounding NO. I had started feeling so good that I started thinking in a kind of reluctant way...well I probably should do something positive with my life. And not because I've been taught to... it actually felt like my "conscience" becoming active.
Now I don't know what to think... |
I don't feel exactly like you, but your post resonated with me.
I am ambitious and want power. But I want power to change the world for the best. I would change the educative system in my country for something better, for example. Teach fast-reading at elementary school and photo-reading at high school. I would like to re-plant lots of forests that have been burned... I really want power, but I don't want to harm people. Harming people is the easiest thing on earth: you could pour some oil on a curve on a highroad and you'd get people killed. So what? Like there's something special or skillful to it. Harming people is nothing, everyone can do it. Besides, it's unoriginal. Teaching people? Feeding people? Sending thousands, millions of children to school? Creating forests where they were none? Man... I puff at the mere thought of all this.
You can want power and not want to harm people. You can be ambitious and not want to harm people. I want to change the world for the better, and I know I need power for that. But I'm not for harming people. As I said, it's boring, it's easy, and even the most stupid dork can do that. Unsportive, too. Besides, I want the potential of all the people who's being wasted by famine or plague or bad education nowadays. I want the books they can write, the films they can make, the rockets they can build and the vaccines they can discover. All that human potential that is being wasted is being stolen from me. From a selfish point of view, I want to help that people. From a compassionate point of view, I want to help that people. The greater the power, the more people I could help.
Why don't you focus your hunger for power in that direction? It works for me.