*sigh* I tend to attract older guys, who somehow think I'm charming and young and cute yet oddly proper/mature, intelligent and "wise"... to an extent I prefer to date somewhat older guys, because I've gone through life a bit quicker than others and am at the same place in life/maturity as guys a few years older. But I've had several much-older guys want to date me, or at least take me out and flirt with me even if they realize we're both better off with people closer to our ages- and I've always felt the weirdness of a guy wanting someone much younger, felt the inequity in the interaction and been uncomfortable with the idea of being in a relationship with them. Often the guy expects to pay for everything and go out to nice places, and I feel a bit like a paid pet and like I have to act especially nice and interested-in-them and joyful and mature to repay their largess; often they compliment my looks in a very "courtly" fashion that somehow just makes me uncomfortable and in the back of my mind wonder what they would think when I got older; they have many more experiences and great conversation which can be enlightening but a bit intimidating- I feel like a student talking to a teacher and have trouble disagreeing very forcefully with any of their opinions; and also physically I just don't feel attracted, so if I were to go out with them I would feel a bit like Anna Nicole Smith or something, trading sex for other types of attention and gifts.
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