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Originally Posted by lightthecandle  I act so nice/sweet/happy with most of my friends/ distant family/acquaintances and everyone else in this world
but the one person in the WORLD that I can't get along with is my younger 18yr old sister..i constantly curse and yell at her (even though everything thinks I'm a sweet/innocent person). she gets me so mad..she's failing 2 classes in highschool so far, and for that I just want to punch her in the face.
maybe its because I'm jealous of her looks? she's supersuper pretty, and i'm just average (or ugly actually). why does she get the looks and I don't?
i just want her to honestly be happy, and get goood grades, is that so much to ask for???
anyway, I don't know why I put her through so much hell..I feel like I'm emotionally abusing her..and I can't stop...I feel like a monster when I'm around her |
In my opinion you are pushing your own model of the world onto her which you shouldn't. Let her live her own life and help her where necessary, but on her terms. But; why should you get
mad because
she fails a year? That's her problem; not yours. Live your own life.
Are you in some way afraid that people will like her more because of her better looks and therefore there is not enough left for you? You are focusing on the wrong things; it is probably very hard in the beginning to practise, but you really should be focusing on what you want to create in your own life. You might even want to move out for a while, because now you are confronted with the anchored feelings every day. Jealousy comes from a scarcity mentality; start building your own life and find your strengths and the jealousy will go away.
Good luck!