[lightthecandle]

I act so nice/sweet/happy with most of my friends/ distant family/acquaintances and everyone else in this world
but the one person in the WORLD that I can't get along with is my younger 18yr old sister..i constantly curse and yell at her (even though everything thinks I'm a sweet/innocent person). she gets me so mad..she's failing 2 classes in highschool so far, and for that I just want to punch her in the face.


maybe its because I'm jealous of her looks? she's supersuper pretty, and i'm just average (or ugly actually). why does she get the looks and I don't?

i just want her to honestly be happy, and get goood grades, is that so much to ask for???

anyway, I don't know why I put her through so much hell..I feel like I'm emotionally abusing her..and I can't stop...I feel like a monster when I'm around her