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Originally Posted by Rose of Cairo  Really Steve? I have consciously committed to become a lightworker, and I'm working on myself a lot in order to go this path, but I totally don't feel like one yet. There are so many issues I need to work out first, and so much fear still inside of me. I'm still harming others because of that and I don't contribute much either. Of course I try to make every one of my decisions out of love - but sometimes I think I have made a decision out of love, and when I look a bit more closely at it, I realize it was in fact out of some hidden fear  I'm just not ready. |
this how these ideas feel like judgments. "it's ok to not be polarized but you won't be motivated properly to be very effective" - is this a motivation or subtle elitism?
Why not instead of trying to figure out what polarity to choose, focus your awareness on whatever level of sense of self you have? if that's with your personal self - then so be it and apply love to that level and disregard the rest until you have yourself situated so you can give outside of current definition of self. Then take what you did with yourself and extend that love to a larger sphere by looking into realizing the oneness of larger spheres of sense of self.
if a DW is focused on what is good for his/her own self - then what's a LW other than someone that's doing the same thing but with a sense of self at gaia level?