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Originally Posted by christinemariexo  At times I feel as though I am able to connect with my conscious self, and, when I reach that level, the feeling resembles losing an incessant headache that for my existence I've been oblivious to. Maintaining the conscious, for me, is impossible. It seems no matter what I do, the autopilot takes over. I've seriously put in effort at times when I've wanted it most, and no matter what my attempts, my thoughts scatter around in my mind - but this effort, because in my unconsious mind, seems like a lazy attempt that I am not sure how to overcome. I always resort back to the same unhappy, detached girl who is constantly overthinking, overanalyzing, and just looking for some peace. |
I'd feel good about yourself because some people either never realise this or just cover it up with things like drinking, drugs, video games ect. Not saying any of these things are "bad" persay, but using them to cover up your true feelings just isn't healthy.
I recall being in your position a few years ago. I recall at this time I wanted eagerly to go back and eagerly to go back into unconsciousness...however today I see it as quite the opposite. Right now I feel as if its the greatest thing thats ever happened to me, and I'm sure down the road you'll feel the same way too.
I recall when I went through this period I went obsessive on Personal Development. I probably looked at it for a few hours per day. To make a long story short, I think the best thing I learned are that joy and happiness are inside you.
Best of luck