[wolfgang]

Originally Posted by BringTheDarkness

I'm going to throw a few more cents in to this thread although my "gut instinct" is telling me I'm probably wasting my time.

yeah, probably a waste of time these ideas.

One place that I differ greatly from what I guess you could call "traditional" thinking (especially regarding RHP thinking) is that I do NOT think both paths are equal at the end of the day. By this I mean that I do NOT think that all is ONE or connected UNLESS by choice.

In my way of thinking the CHOICE of the RHP (lightworker) is to eventually reach Nirvana; to merge with the one, or the all.

this merging doesn't mean you loose your identity and have no sense of your self and a person. it does mean that you are not lulled into being asleep about the illusion of personal self identifications. once an illusion is known to be an illusion it still will be there (as an illusion) but the need to cling to it for being happy or to take it personal is gone.

As a follower of the LHP however, I DO NOT want to be ONE with everything. I do NOT want to lose my consciousness (not ego, ego dies with the body as far as I'm concerned). I CHOOSE to be separate. I don't want to be in Nirvana. I don't want to lose the identification of self that happens with the RHP/lightworker.

some say you can have both a nirvana and a little self. when one gains oneness there is a self that is experiencing oneness and that identity is just a interface for the bigger consciousness of all. to lose consciousness of the ego brings consciousness of oneness that is the real deal trying to live through us anyway.

Many will label this as evil; so be it.

Now most people don't polarize. Look at all the wish-washiness that happens in this thread. Most people are like a pendulum; the keep swinging back and forth because they have no will (see Gurdjieff & Ouspensky).

sometimes these ideas of one needs to figure out how to polarize makes one go on a wild goose chase instead of just learning how to tune in or feel alive or something more holistic than being stuck in our heads analyzing what our motivations are and if they are pure enough or something.

or that there's some elitist mentality to "getting it" - there are those that are polarized and are "better off". Why is that? why be told we must polarize to achieve. it's a judgment and complicated analysis that hinders more than a pointing to a way.

One day they are pissed and hate the world, the next day they meet a new girl and then are happy, she sleeps with someone else they are depressed now etc.

This is how most live their lives blowing around like dust in the wind.

that's just being stuck in habitual behaviour.

I know, because I used to be that way.

But I realized that there was a flame in me. Something that was DIFFERENT (and I must admit, better) than many of those around me.

For a while, I walked the "light" (RHP).

For me, it seemed to end in oblivion. I didn't want to merge with God.

again - not all ideas of being awake make it oblivion - actually they are alivening of the soul coursing through us.

I wanted to remain isolated and separate to keep building my knowledge and power and KEEP them after death as a separate consciousness.

do you want to remain isolated to any harm you may do along this path?

Now, on to the "ethics".

I have a very complex system of ethics. Even though I am polarizing LHP, I don't just wander around doing whatever I want to fulfill whatever whims I have.

That isn't polarization. That is Hedonism. The Church of Satan tried that approach, and it didn't work out too well because at the end of the day, you have to have ethics AND spirituality.

I have both.

Do I turn the other cheek? F no I don't. If someone injures a loved one, would I destroy them? Hell yes I would (pardon the Bon Mot). I've done it before. Note that I obey ALL laws. I don't even speed. Even though I walk the dark, hidden path my ethics don't allow me to break laws.

Do I just indiscriminately run around cursing the guy who cut me off in traffic? No. Because I am developing my will and my being, therefore I am not just "blowing around in the wind". I only stomp those who intentionally hurt me (or try to) at a severe level.

fight fire with fire.

Contrary to what seems to be the prevalent idea among LW'ers I DO feel all kinds of love. In fact, the further I go along this path the HAPPIER I feel.

it's ivory tower to have love without feeling connected to source. happiness placed on the conditions of form will crumble and flip flop.