[BringTheDarkness]

I'm going to throw a few more cents in to this thread although my "gut instinct" is telling me I'm probably wasting my time.

I am one who follows the path of darkness. And I do this intentionally.

The first point of discussion I want to bring up here is that my "cosmology", for want of a different term, is significantly different than Steve's and also different from your standard STS/STO ideas that have proliferated on the web.

With that being said I absolutely ABHOR the terms lightworker/darkworker. The reason for this is because due to the inability of most people to really THINK about what they are doing/saying plus the inability of most to have a well-defined will (to actually polarize), the two preceding terms have a build-in bias. These terms mean many different things to many different people, hence the discussion here tends to go off on tangents.

So let me describe my thinking.

I use more "traditional" occult terms to describe my cosmology so I am going to refer to Left-Hand path as Darkworking, and Right-Hand path to refer to Lightworking.

One place that I differ greatly from what I guess you could call "traditional" thinking (especially regarding RHP thinking) is that I do NOT think both paths are equal at the end of the day. By this I mean that I do NOT think that all is ONE or connected UNLESS by choice.

In my way of thinking the CHOICE of the RHP (lightworker) is to eventually reach Nirvana; to merge with the one, or the all.

As a follower of the LHP however, I DO NOT want to be ONE with everything. I do NOT want to lose my consciousness (not ego, ego dies with the body as far as I'm concerned). I CHOOSE to be separate. I don't want to be in Nirvana. I don't want to lose the identification of self that happens with the RHP/lightworker.

Many will label this as evil; so be it.

Now most people don't polarize. Look at all the wish-washiness that happens in this thread. Most people are like a pendulum; the keep swinging back and forth because they have no will (see Gurdjieff & Ouspensky).

One day they are pissed and hate the world, the next day they meet a new girl and then are happy, she sleeps with someone else they are depressed now etc.

This is how most live their lives blowing around like dust in the wind.

I know, because I used to be that way.

But I realized that there was a flame in me. Something that was DIFFERENT (and I must admit, better) than many of those around me.

For a while, I walked the "light" (RHP).

For me, it seemed to end in oblivion. I didn't want to merge with God.

I wanted to remain isolated and separate to keep building my knowledge and power and KEEP them after death as a separate consciousness.

Now, on to the "ethics".

I have a very complex system of ethics. Even though I am polarizing LHP, I don't just wander around doing whatever I want to fulfill whatever whims I have.

That isn't polarization. That is Hedonism. The Church of Satan tried that approach, and it didn't work out too well because at the end of the day, you have to have ethics AND spirituality.

I have both.

Do I turn the other cheek? F no I don't. If someone injures a loved one, would I destroy them? Hell yes I would (pardon the Bon Mot). I've done it before. Note that I obey ALL laws. I don't even speed. Even though I walk the dark, hidden path my ethics don't allow me to break laws.

Do I just indiscriminately run around cursing the guy who cut me off in traffic? No. Because I am developing my will and my being, therefore I am not just "blowing around in the wind". I only stomp those who intentionally hurt me (or try to) at a severe level.

Contrary to what seems to be the prevalent idea among LW'ers I DO feel all kinds of love. In fact, the further I go along this path the HAPPIER I feel.

Literally.

These are some of my thoughts on this discussion. INTELLIGENT discourse is welcome.

BTD