[MasterD]

Wow Steve. I didn't read your other articles on polarization. I have done a lot of reading on it now and it blew my away.

I always knew that I was sabotaging myself in a lot of goals, because not everything that I was doing was in alignment with each other. Like I want to take care of my health, but I am doing a Master's in Applied Physics right now, which is not aligned with my primary purpose. Before I was extremely interested in pursuing the darkworker path (though I saw it as the only option and maybe I would just have become a pawn of darkworkers, because it was not a very conscious decision) and going for a career with an extremely ambitious firm and for that I needed to get a Master's. Now this motivation just becomes less and less. I am definitely losing my polarization.

The answer for me is to repolarize and this will be extremely hard; though I almost know for certain that I will go for the lightworker path; I don't see a way back; this is what I want to experience.

I will have to face some extremely hard decisions the coming months. Am I going to finish my Master's; or am I going to be satisfied with a BSc? Am I going to start my own business; by lightworking or darkworking? Or am I going to pursue a career with an established firm focusing on lightworking or on darkworking?

Deep down I already feel the answer, but I am not 100% sure yet. I will have to test and experiment; since something in me just wants to finish my education and be an engineer (=darkworking); though I never may be needing the title in my entire life and that takes away my motivation to pursue it, but it also distracts me from doing other productive (=lightworking) things. Somehow I would be most happy if I could frame the drive to finish my education into a lightworking perspective.

Thanks again; this is extremely helpful.