There are probably many reasons.
I think that it's a lot of social conditioning. Telling you to be miserable now and wait for a happy ending, a reality reinforced in stories and movies.
There is also the thing about many of us never growing out of childish behavior. For instance, kids are often rewarded for whining and telling on others (getting attention and retribution, respectively). It builds ego.
Ultimately, we hate ourselves because of a negative mental concept. In fact, a positive mental concept is still a mental concept. And reality does not consist of mental concepts. No concept could ever encompass the vastness of reality and make you realize the vastness without experiencing it yourself.
Really, if you want to stop hating yourself, let go of your thinking. There are many ways to do it, like focusing on your breathing, doing other things to refocus you on the present moment, or even just positive thoughts. |