Dear Faye,
Thanks for listening to my music. I'm sorry to hear that your 'waking round in the new me' wasn't quite the pleasurable experience I envisioned when I wrote that song (How Can It Be). Perhaps what you are feeling right now is more akin to The Abyss:
Quote:
I keep on falling into the abyss
And I've been crashing down, down, down
I can't remember how long
But I believe, some day I'll touch the ground
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I wrote that late 2003, when my life was coming apart at the seams - I was jobless, fast heading for bankruptcy and facing and ever bigger rift between me and my (then) circle of friends. Not a fun period...
I still carry a burden from that time, but it grows lighter every year and I emerged stronger, better and happier than I was before.
Growth is not without pain, unfortunately, and what you are experiencing now are the very first signs of growth - the intense displeasure with your current situation and a growing desire to make a change.
Feel free to vent here whenever you need to, ask for help, etc. The road is hard and trying, but we'll all be here to help you every step of the way.
Once again: good luck!
love,
Jim.