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Originally Posted by Acting Like Godot  So I wonder whether I'm facing a "True Will" problem with my poetry, and then I wonder, if this indeed is the problem, why would it be a problem? Why does publishing a poetry book run against my True Will?
I now suspect that it's because of what my poems are about. Most of my poems were written in my pre-LOA days. Some of those poems were quite dark and negative. Very interesting to read, but very dark and negative. Others commented on socio-political issues, but again in a largely critical, cynical fashion. |
And now will you write poems that are lighter and more positive, and see if that book gets published?
Sometimes things work out in ways we never could foresee. The friend I mentioned who I met in Idaho, has the best marriage I have ever seen. They are truly soulmates and totally compatible. Her first marriage was terrible. She said he was a selfish jerk. They were from Iowa originally and he got a job in Idaho and so they moved there. Eventually she divorced him. Afterward, she met the guy she's been married to now for over 20 years. She says even though her first marriage was terrible, how can she possibly regret it when she would never have met her second husband if she wouldn't have married her first hsuband?
So I don't know what exactly all that has to do with LoA or IM, but it seemed relative to True Will, somehow.
Everything I see reassures me that we are meant to be abundant and wealthy. It's hard for me to imagine that True Will would want me to be debt-ridden and broke. That's a situation I created myself . . . and really, I thought I had found the last two money blocks. It had that familiar feeling of when you finally peel away the last layer -- it's something so obvious you wonder how you never saw it, and it's also kind of empty, because it's so simple and common, rather than something complicated and unique.
The fact at this moment is, I'm not going to be able to make the business successful unless I clear up all this financial stupidity, because there's no cash flow, and everything is getting more and more constricted as time goes on, because the longer it goes on the more it costs. I don't even feel good anymore. Really, right now, I am about ready to just give up, and it's monumentally depressing. It's such a relatively small amount of money too, that would clear up every problem -- and I sit here looking at this going, how is it possible I have not been able to create this small amount of money, after nearly a year? I've spent nearly a year pretending it was all a done deal, and there comes a point where you have to face it, that nothing is happening. You're right, I know how it works. You fling your wish into the universe and later that day the boss calls and says, "Guess what? We got money for the next semester!"
Oh well. I do appreciate all the time you have taken trying to be encouraging and clarifying things. I am about the most persistent and doggedly-determined person you will ever meet, but in this situation . . . I simply can't get it to work for me.