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Originally Posted by moonrambler  I think my first experience with actual focused purposeful IM was while reading a book called something like "The Lazy Man's Way to Riches," which had a section about affirmations, which the author called declarations. This was probably in September of that year. I wrote up some of my own declarations on index cards and I would read them every morning. I was staying in Idaho at the time with a friend from my hometown, and I had been moving around and traveling and living like a gypsy. One of my declarations was, "I live in a place I really like, where I have good close friends, and fulfilling work I really like." What I expected was that I would finally move somewhere that all this would come true. As late as January I was still looking for somewhere to move to, and I was thinking about Phoenix. Then in January or February I got offered a limited-term position at the university, which was (and still is to this day) the coolest job I ever had. I absolutely loved it. And through that job, I met a woman who became one of my best friends. And then I realized I had actually fallen in love with the town too. It was rather amazing to me how that affirmation had worked out, very differently than I had expected, but perfectly.
Sometimes it seems so easy, things just happen even when it looks like they can't. Once I had another limited-term position at another university, and it was due to end because they had run out of the money budgeted for the job, and I was bummed because I really liked this job, and I wrote in my journal, "I really wish something would work out so I could stay there longer." The next thing I knew, my boss had negotiated with another department so he got some of their budget money and I was able to stay on for another semester.
Again, usually it seems like things just seem to happen. I have a friend who got into serious financial problems and got his truck repossessed last year. He went around without a vehicle for months and months. I didn't tell anybody about this because it was horribly embarrassing for him. Once upon a time, I had sold a $5,000 car for $500 to one of my best friends, a single mom who'd just graduated from college at age 40 and was up to her neck in student loans. She drove this car for 10 years and then last summer decided she was going to get a different car. She told me she was thinking of giving the old car to some charity or other rather than trade it in, and at that point I told her that this friend of ours hadn't been able to keep up with his truck payments so he had to give it up. And she gave the car back to me, and I'm letting him use it, and in return he's paying the insurance for both my cars.
Now, it isn't like every single thing I ever wanted has worked out, but sometimes it seems so easy and weird how simple it is, how things just fall into place. |
See, what I'm hearing from you is that you DO know how to make the LOA work. Your big problem is just in one specific area of your life - money. You have some kind of block or issue there, and you just haven't figured it out yet.
I also have my block. See, I used to write a lot of poetry, and I was pretty good at it. Lots of my individual poems have been published internationally, in half a dozen countries, in anthologies and journals, and in one case, published in the same collection as to two Nobel Prize Laureates. Here in my country, I've won a prestigious award, and I've had my poems read on radio; converted into drama performances; studied by school students; converted into exam questions; critiqued in PhD theses.
And the funny thing is - all these years, I've never been able to get my own book published. I still haven't. Every publisher I've sent my poems to says that they love my poems; and yet none of them offer me a publishing contract.
So this is my block.
I keep wondering why I have this block. Lately, as you know, I've been exploring magick, and I've learned about this concept called "True Will". Basically, it means that although we all have a great degree of free will to manifest our intentions, there are just a few things that aren't meant to be, and no matter how we manifest or do spells or take actual action, those things just won't happen, because they run counter to what the Universe intends for us.
So I wonder whether I'm facing a "True Will" problem with my poetry, and then I wonder, if this indeed is the problem, why would it be a problem? Why does publishing a poetry book run against my True Will?
I now suspect that it's because of what my poems are about. Most of my poems were written in my pre-LOA days. Some of those poems were quite dark and negative. Very interesting to read, but very dark and negative. Others commented on socio-political issues, but again in a largely critical, cynical fashion.
And now, I've learned LOA. Positive and happy, and all that. Maybe that's why publishing those poems is now against my True Will. Too many of those poems are just dark and negative. So the universe won't permit me to publish them in book form - otherwise, it might well just become a textbook for school students and then my poems would plant dark, negative, cynical thoughts in their heads.
Who knows ....?
