Relationships, jobs, 280k loss, mother, ex-boyfriend, good friend's death - well, you got the picture. EVERY TIME I MOVE TO THIS STATE - IT ALWAYS INVOLVES LOSS AND GRIEF which inevitably makes me negatively attract more.
I know that we create our realities, however, in other states I've lived in, I didn't find the struggle, effort, etc. I always felt here - never felt connected with it and have lost so much - an astrologer told me I was in wrong state - no "s**t"! Years ago, while in CA, everything, it seemed went my way, was effortless, I was lucky - maybe it was simply because I liked it there.
Do you all think that the geographical area one is in influences your luck or well being - or the exact opposite: loss, illness, disconnection, etc.
Leaving nothing/noone behind, just remorse, regrets, broken heart/self, bad, very bad memories - am moving back to my magical state nine hours from here - I already feel alive just by thinking of it. I wonder why I came here to die, leave with hardly nothing but my car and "life", only to return where I began - akin to going off to war and encountering atrocities then coming back scared, but, will heal - if I remain in this land of the loss - I'll never heal and will will myself to die as I was beginning to.
Any comments aside from my, Woo HOOOOO! I'm finally outta here!!!!!
