Originally Posted by Angela
God, Faye, each new thing you tell us about him makes him sound more and more awful! You are in love with this guy? Don't answer that, I know, you're in love with him, you've got your reasons. From an outsider's perspective, though, I'd just like you to know how really NOT a loving, long-term mutually beneficial relationship (LLTMBR) this is. I am saying this to you because it took a girlfriend telling me, in my similar situation, just how hideously I was behaving by handing my power, my choices, my personality, and my responsibility over to a man before I took a bold look and realized how I was stinking up my own life.
And all your "yeah,buts" all add up to "Yeah, but I LOVE HIM!!!!" (which is the chorus of what I call the Chicken Opera, and lots of us have sung it!
Just because you love someone, though -- even if it's A LOT -- that doesn't necessarily mean you're good partners together. Good LLTMBR partners help each other feel better, in every possible way. Does Mr. Menage do that for you?
Angela, the first thing that i have to say is that a chicken opera makes me laugh very hard. at first it just made me smile, but then as i began to actually imagine chickens singing opera and people sitting on balconies with tiny binoculars watching them -- it became hysterical. BWAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAK! ahem.
please keep in mind that i am upset right now and i am telling you specific details but not all details. i already talk too much as it is. he is not a hideous demon.
there is something that kind of worries me, though, but it is not something i can prove even to myself. it's not something that would ever be admitted, even if it was true, i think. it is rather intimate, though, and i am not sure of how explicit i am allowed to be here.
i don't want to be offensive to anyone. i will try to say it in a way that can not offend anyone too much, and if i should take it out then please just tell me.
sometimes i think that when he does things that are to make me feel good/ feel better .. i get this deep rooted feeling that he is doing it so that i am more receptive to making love. because whenever he does, that is what follows. i don't know if it is wrong of me to see that as negative or to even think that. i guess i just wish that sometimes it would be 'just because'.