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The Power of Commitment:
"The commitments we make to ourselves and to others, and our integrity to those commitments, is the essence and clearest manifestation of our proactivity. "
"The power to make and keep commitments to ourselves is the essence of developing the basic habits of effectiveness. "
Stephen Covey - The Seven Habits of Highly Effective People
You seem to be on the good way of developping the first habit, Be Proactive. Get the book it is good. You will gain confidence, and more.
"Self-awareness enables us to stand apart and examine even the way we "see" ourselves -- our paradigm, the most fundamental paradigm of effectiveness. "
Stephen Covey - The Seven Habits of Highly Effective People