 20 and never been in a relationship...
Hey people
How do i start? Well, i have never been in a relationship with a girl, never kissed a girl, never had sex... or anything that comes with that. And as of the past year or so, im starting to really doubt myself in that area, and its starting to get me depressed and making me really negative about life.
Is it natural that im starting to doubt myself? Im quite a nervous and worrying person anyways, but i really starting to worry that the reason im like this is because i might be gay or so, but i dont want to be.
Like for example, i have been bumping into this girl quite a lot and we started having a laugh and so, found out a few things that we both share in common and she also said she would take me out one day etc. And i gotta admit she is the total opposite of me, outgoing, perky, mad, social and all that. And the other week on MSN (because i could not do it to her face) told her i quite liked her, but now, im totally doubting myself if i actually DO like her or its just my head playing games with me. And like today, i see her and i dunno what to think now or what im REALLY feeling, im totally confused about what is real and what is not...
So i dunno, im eather really messed up or its the lack of experience that is making me all confused, because i dont know what is what. Ah i dunno, im just totally confused, im worrying too much...
Sorry if nothing makes sense...
TVJ
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