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Originally Posted by JayFL  That is exactly what I've had a hard time getting a grasp on...what exactly am I so angry about? I decided at the beginning that I wasn't going to hold back in this relationship and give it my all. I admit in that process that I gave up all of my power to this person. |
How about trying on for size: all this ongoing anger.. it's anger at yourself. You deciding you're going to give it you're all doesn't mean that she owes you giving it her all. In fact, she doesn't owe you anything at all, and there's nothing you can do to change that or her. It's a pretty powerless and infuriating stance to take that others *should* do what you want them to do because you want them to do it. That's a recipe for no freedom in a relationship, and no wonder it's leaving you feeling unsatisfied.
How about trying on: she is making the best choices she can in her life, and so are you. If you can accept that, you're on your way to forgiveness, to generating freedom and therefore love, and to being powerful in relationships.
It may be hard, though, because *shoulds* don't want to die!
